The Weight Dilemma

"Aida, are you pregnant? You look chubbier than before," asked a senior colleague of mine.

"Whattttt? Nooo. Not yet. That's just me getting fatter. Tsk!" T_T

Yeah, I know, you don't have to point it out so blatantly. Huhu. Well, sapa taknak kurus/badan cantik kan? Gosh, I think I do have a lot of explanation why those love handles stick like glue! 

First, I'm big boned. Face it, we come in all sizes and shapes and you can't blame yourself if it's in the genes rightttt? I'm sure we can't lose weight from our bones, err.. can we? 

Second, I believe my metabolism rate is only so-so. I tend to sweat a lot, but I don't exercise, hence less sweat and my chance to lose weight is slim to none. Unless I do more physical activities, I don't think I'm able to burn a lot of calories from those food I've been eating. I mean, my job doesn't really require a lot of physical energy - mental energy, yes, heaps. I used to be quite active in sports. I play badminton, squash, sometimes I work out at the gym and I swim a lot.. but lately I don't know what has got into me, I keep on giving excuses, not wanting to do them all anymore. I have no time and no will.. help!

Also, I eat unhealthily. I love food but I wanna lose weight too. I really enjoy cooking for other people especially Hubby, but being on my own here makes it worse, really. Here, I don't cook and most of the time I just eat out or tapau food (fast food, slow food, mamak food, ahh you name it). Why? Let's just say cooking for one isn't really my cup of tea. Although it's a cleaner and healthier option, I find preparing for it as a hassle that it's just not worth it at all. And if I do cook, I rely a lot on processed food like sausages and nuggets for my meals, which of course, are often high in fats, sugar and salt. Although it is quick and convenient, but then again, what's the point of eating a lot of fruits and drinking yoghurts and plenty of water if I still eat processed food, right? Tu tak kira unhealthy canteen food lagi.. Ada ke jual Maggi kat sekolah? Tak patut! At least if we make our own homemade meal, we know the ingredients and the amounts that are going into the meal, kan? I believe nothing can be more valuable in our lives than our health.. As the saying goes, 'health is wealth'.. huuu.. I really need to change my lifestyle and make improvements if I want to stay healthy! Moderation is the key here, for we are what we eat. Badly need to cut down on sugar and salt intake, eat less than I usually do, eat more fruits and veggies and exercise more. Heyy, I know all these things.. I used to shed a good 10-12 kilos the last time I followed this routine.. entah kenapa sekarang tak boleh.. 

Once upon a time.. I looked that good

Don't get me wrong, I love myself, no matter how much I weight but I admit kadang-kadang tu penat juga when people look at me and think/tell me I need to lose weight. I'm also tired of not being able to buy clothes in department stores just because they don't have my size (OK, now I'm making myself fatter than I really am :p). Most of all, I'm tired of looking horrible in all clothes (I still love dressing up though, teehee~). But these reasons don't seem to motivate me at all to stop eating unhealthily and becoming more active. Oh I know, lack of discipline and MALAS!!

  

Now.. err, not that flattering coz dah 'berkembang'  in every way :p

Consistency. That's the trick. Once I get into the pattern of eating healthy meals and exercising even just a bit, I'll start losing weight and it'll be easier. I realize that it's not the easiest thing to do, but the first step is always the hardest, innit? Come on, Aida, you can do it.. start NOW!


p/s: Do you face the same dilemma?