Friday, January 30, 2009

Such is life

Oh no! It's Friday already! There goes my so-called one-week holidays. Puff! In a blink of an eye, it finally reaches the end, marking the beginning of weeks of work, work and more work! Well, I don't think an entry would be able to explain how stressed I could be later. So, nevermind that for now.

Do something today, apart from having your usual Casual Friday! =p

What did I do for the holidays? To be frank, nothing at all. I did have some plans at the beginning, yet I had to cancel it due to some circumstances. Unforeseen ones. Instead I just sit at home, doing some household chores and some school work, while the rest of my time are spent getting online and surfing the Net. Alone.. I repeat the word with grim satisfaction. Life could never be this boring! However, I'm glad that we have the holidays as I really indulge all the time I get to spend to myself. I can't think of any other time when I got to do whatever I want to do and whenever I want to do it. Normally, on holidays like this I would travel somewhere instead of being home alone. My mood has not improved yet, so that kinda contributes to my lack of eagerness to travel or do anything else at all. I'm imagining something better to improve my mood, yet nothing comes to my mind. Some things are changing in me but I don't like where it's going.

As usual, the insomnia attacks me the most during holidays. Since I have nothing to do during the day, I'm not really tired at night. Having no further obligation to wake up early in the mornings for the whole of one week, I just go with the flow instead. If I couldn't sleep, fine, whatever. I don't wanna take any pills whatsoever to aid me to get some sleep. I know it can be addictive. I hope by next week my normal sleeping routine would be back. I can't afford going to school all worn out and exhausted. A lot of work are coming my way!

This morning, since I couldn't sleep, I dj-ed at FungkurFM starting dawn up till lunch time. That's a record for me coz I rarely deejay for more than 4 hours. Don't laugh at me, I even lied flat on my back while dj-ing! I felt tired and my back hurt due to my sleep deprivation. And yes, it doesn't require much skills or equipments, especially when all you have to prepare are, yourself, a laptop complete with broadcasting software like SAM or ShoutCast, a headset and a very stable wireless connection! The rest of the positions are up to you! *grin*

Please don't stop the music~~

Hmm.. I actually smile upon seeing that person today. Yet I still feel upset about what happened between us last time. We talk.. but the tension is there. Yes, he is fully aware of it, but, still doesn't do anything about it. All he asked was for me not to set 'Permanent Offline' settings at YM for him. I still do. Ha-ha. Ah.. whatever. Am I stubborn enough? I don't know why but I think this is for the best. Well, at least for the time being. This is crazy. I'd never felt so upset in my life over a friend. Seriously speaking, if this keeps on continuing in the future, I have no other options but to let him go. Like they say, cry now, laugh later.This is all a part of growing up.. sometimes we just have to learn to let go. Some things are never meant to be. Whatever it is, I hope we could make amends for all the misunderstandings and get things back to normal.

This reminds me of a friend whom I talked with today, only to discover the secrets that he's been hiding from us all this while. How could this be happening? I feel sorry for him and I really hope he could think and discuss over things before making incredulous decisions that many people won't be happy about. Like I mentioned before, some things are never meant to be. If that's for the best, you have to learn to accept it, no matter how difficult or how hard it could be on you. Don't fret - I'm sure she'll be okay. You will, too. Over time. Remember that your friends will always support you from behind, yet you have to promise not to repeat the same mistakes. We don't want other people to get hurt too. So, please. Take time to enjoy your life before it's too late. Don't cry over unnecessary things - there are plenty more fish in the sea!

Oh yeah, I'm both interested and distinctly underwhelmed to share about my zodiac forecasts for the year 2009 according to the Chinese calendar. I'm a Rat and it is believed that this year is not going to be as lucky as the previous year for the Rats, especially in terms of health and love life. I'll be more prone to accidents and lack of sleep (hah!) and relationship breakdowns. We're luckier in terms of career and work though, as people would appreciate our talents and work. Well.. it's still early to say anything, so let's just see how it goes this year okay! After all, I only read this for fun (thanks for sharing, Lat!).

The Rats:
forthright, inquisitive, bright, sociable, hardworking, critical, over-ambitious

Anyway, I'm really taking my time to finish up marking the essays. I'm just too lazy to do anything right now... Hope I could finish it by the end of the week. Good luck to me. Before I forget, I plan to go out tomorrow and snap some pictures around Sandakan. It has been a while since I last took ahold of my Nikon D60. Maybe I need to go out and see more of the world outside after all...

Wednesday, January 28, 2009


What the hell. I don't know how long am I gonna stand this. It's killing me. I am happy now, so please, please, please leave me alone and don't disturb me. Don't ask me the question, "why are you doing this to me?" because I've already given you the answer and I don't feel obligated telling it over and over again. You, of all people, should have understood that by now. I need time, I need space on my own.

This time around, I've never felt happier. This is the way I like my life to be. Free from whichever problems and all the burdens. At one point I felt stuck, yet now I've never felt so carefree. Now it's strictly no strings attached. So, do whatever you want do, I would appreciate it if you would let me do what I want to do, too.

At first, I thought things would be a lil hard on me. But when I think back on the days passed, I don't feel a thing at all now. I feel indifferent. I might have hurt other people's feelings. I might have made other people's lives miserable. Still, I don't feel a thing. I don't even feel the distance. All the calls, all the smses seem like just another brief episodes in my life. It comes and it goes., and I don't even give a damn about it. No matter what you or other people say, I simply don't care anymore. This might be hurtful, but I'm too upset to feel bad about that yet. I just want to live my life. So, please.

Love is irrational. The more you loved someone, the less sense anything made. Love is good when it's right. I used to hate all the misunderstandings and confusions between us. But this time it's different. Surprisingly, I'm not missing you.

Monday, January 26, 2009

Lunar Greetings

Wishing everyone a very Happy Chinese New Year, and happy holidays!
May the year of ox brings you more love, money, happiness, laughters, good luck, good fortune and prosperity! Gong xi, gong xi!

Sunday, January 25, 2009

Don't know why..

I don't know why.. but are you avoiding me? If yes, why? Would you mind telling me? Please don't leave me in the dark like this. I need answers, not you giving me the cold shoulder. You seem to keep a distance between us nowadays. What has happened to you? Or is it me after all? If it's true you hate me, tell me frankly. It really aches me so much to see you but not being able to reach you. Please don't let this frustration turn into annoyance because I know I couldn't afford to lose a friend as good and caring as you..

I wish that you are well, although I don't think you're well enough to reply my messages. Here I am, sitting at home, missing you more every minute. I feel lonely, worried, bored and now desolate as I realized that the days apart had not had the same effect on you. What can I say.. maybe I'm being silly or nervous unnecessarily. Well, this sucks!

Don't Know Why by Norah Jones

I waited 'til I saw the sun
I don't know why I didn't come
I left you by the house of fun
I don't know why I didn't come
I don't know why I didn't come

When I saw the break of day
I wished that I could fly away
Instead of kneeling in the sand
Catching teardrops in my hand

My heart is drenched in wine
But you'll be on my mind forever

Out across the endless sea
I would die in ecstasy
But I'll be a bag of bones
Driving down the road along

My heart is drenched in wine
But you'll be on my mind forever

Something has to make you run
I don't know why I didn't come
I feel as empty as a drum
I don't know why I didn't come
I don't know why I didn't come
I don't know why I didn't come

Green with envy

Phewww! At last, my new updated blog is here! I figure that I needed a change in my life, and I guess I could start with giving a fresh touch to my blog - by choosing a green-themed skin! Green colour is known as a cool colour and is calming in effect. Since I spend lotsa times writing here, I guess it would be helpful in times of stress especially. It can soothe and relax us mentally and physically. It also helps alleviate depression, nervousness and anxiety, and offers a sense of renewal, self-control, and harmony. (as quoted from SensationalColour)

I'd like to share some interesting facts I found about the green colour. Check 'em out!

Interesting information about green
  1. Green was the favorite color of George Washington, the first President of the United States.
  2. The color green signifies mystical or magical properties in the stories of King Arthur.
  3. Green is the color used for night-vision goggles because the human eye is most sensitive to and able to discern the most shades of that color.
  4. Bright green is the color of the astrological sign "Cancer."
  5. Green ribbons have been used by a range of environmental groups to symbolize organ donation and transplant, awareness of Bipolar Disorder, solidarity with Chechnya, and support of farmers in America.
  6. In several religions, green is the color associated with resurrection and regeneration.
  7. Green is a powerful color according to the ancient wisdom of Kabbalah, because it is the color of the Central Column that stands between right and left, positive and negative, giving and receiving.
  8. Green is the color of Venus, the Roman goddess of love and beauty.
  9. The prophet Mohammed wore a green cloak and turban.
  10. The God of fertility in Celtic myths was associated with green.
  11. Green is the color associated with Sunday in the Catholic church and the altar cloth is usually green for Sunday services.
  12. Green is the color that represents Irish-Catholics, while orange represents Irish-Protestants.
  13. Green is used worldwide to represent safety.
  14. In several religions, green is the color associated with resurrection and regeneration.
  15. In Ghardaia and other parts of M'zab, houses painted in green indicate that the inhabitants have made a pilgrimage to Mecca.
  16. Green, blue-green, and blue are sacred colors in Iran, where they symbolize paradise.
  17. As the emblematic color of Ireland, green represents the vast green hillsides, as well as Ireland's patron saint, St. Patrick.
  18. In Japan, green is regarded as the color of eternal life.
  19. In Aztec culture, green was considered to be royal because it was the colour of the quetzal plumes used by the Aztec chieftains.
  20. The solid green flag of Libya is currently the only national flag of a single color.
  21. In China, jade stones represent virtue and beauty.
  22. In Portugal, green is the color of hope because of its associations with spring.
  23. In the highlands of Scotland, people used to wear green as a mark of honor.
  24. There is a superstition that sewing with green thread on the eve of a fashion show brings bad luck to the design house.
I chuckled upon reading about what it says about people who buy green vehicles since I myself own one. Hee-hee. It stated that a person who drive a vehicle that is dark green is traditional, trustworthy and well-balanced while for those who drive a bright yellow-green vehicles are depicted as trendy, whimsical and lively. Wow, that's something right.. I dun even know about that before! I just like green as it's calming and soothing.. and different.. yes, different, especially when the cars in my school are mostly black, silver and cream in colour!

trendy, whimsical and lively eh? ha-ha

That's it for now, I'm too sleepy that I couldn't think anymore. So, feel free to comment on the new look of my blog. All comments are very much appreciated! Go green! *grin*

p/s: I even changed my YM skin and desktop background to green too! Heee.

Friday, January 23, 2009

It makes you think

Some of my Form 3 students last year asked me if I'm doing any tuition this year as they are interested to join. My answer was plain and simple.. I told them that I will think about it. I'm teaching all exam classes this year and I'm afraid that I cannot commit to it. Furthermore, later I'm gonna be really busy with drama practice... I'm sure I'll be even more tired. Besides, I want to do whatever I like in the evenings or afternoons without worrying about my next tuition class. Well, all work and no play will make Ms. Aidalicious a dull lady, right! Hee-hee. So, I guess the answer would probably be 'no' then. Sorry guys!

Wednesday, January 21, 2009

At wits' end

Am I going to do it? If it's going to happen somehow, this could be the craziest thing I'd ever done in my life.. ever! I really feel like getting away from the dilemma and the doubts I've been having. I have no hopes whatsoever, I just feel like doing it. I don't even care how it might turn out in the end. Like I mentioned, I just feel like doing it. Don't ask me why, I myself simply don't have the answers.

I wonder how it's gonna be like.. The thoughts can't seem to leave me at all these days. It appears to me like a long continuum, without any clear dividing points. I'm pretty sure it will affect me and my life in certain ways, but for this time around, I really feel like I've to follow my heart, just this once. Then, we'll see how it goes. I hope things are not going to change as much. I really hope it wouldn't. I am comfortable as how it is now. But I'm lost in the dark. I need some answers, proofs, whatever it may be. The more I delay it, the more it stays lingering in my thoughts and mind, diverting all my attention from other things. By that time, I might not be able to hold it.. It will kill me a little more inside. God, help.. I don't wanna do this.. but this might be the best option I have. If I don't do it this time, there won't be a next time. Am I ready yet?

Other people can say whatever they want to say, but I don't give a damn. This is my prerogative.

Tuesday, January 20, 2009

Tingly Tuesday

I woke up late to a showery morning today. My mood hadn't improved since last night. I felt so tired. Tired of all the happenings in my life. Too much, and too heartbreaking to be faced. I just couldn't understand why some people just could not understand the predicament I'm in now. I just need to be alone for a while, to let loose all these burdensome problems that have been lingering in my mind lately. I've thought about a lot of things too. Sometimes I feel unsure for some of it. What can I do? Oh, I'm soooo in need of holidays right now!

There's nothing much going on today. Supervising exams and marking the papers had been my major activities today.. and of course, will be continued tomorrow. I still have two classes' essays to be marked. Apart from that, I was asked to edit the minute I'd prepared yesterday for our last meeting. There are a lot of grammar mistakes in the minute that I need to correct them before sending it to be photocopied, to be given in our next meeting. Well, what do you expect from an English teacher when she is asked to write a minute in Malay Language?

Besides that we had the meeting for the School Magazine committee. I was appointed as Ketua among the photographers. Remind me to hold a separate meeting for us for we have a lot of things to discuss too later; class pictures, staff pictures blah blah blah and the list goes on. Talking about meetings, another meeting is due tomorrow for all teachers and I'm the secretary, duh, and before I forget, another one scheduled on Thursday for the school's website, multimedia presentation and publicity committee. Trust me, it's going to be hectic and busy all week long!

Anyway, it rained again today, non-stop, a continuation from last night's one. This dampened my mood too. It made me losing all the eagerness to socialize with other people so instead, I just listened to the countless songs in my iPod. Secretly, I wish that I could lie on a beach somewhere a lot sunnier where all I can think about is what I want to have for lunch, dinner.. oh well, you know how it goes. But, in my dreams! Ok, teacher, another work to do before I get on to my so-called sunny dreams: read the first suggested script for this year's drama, so here goes..

"I've seen too much in this world... I felt too much... I'd seen and heard..."

Monday, January 19, 2009

Unwritten, unspoken.

There are so many things in life I feel like doing and talking and feeling. Am I too absorbed in my own comfort zone? It seems like there are so many things left unwritten and unspoken. Sometimes I feel like I can't read myself at all. I'm lost in my own thoughts. I try to act as what I say. But I was told that, often, my actions go completely against my words. I am undefined. I can't really decide what I want. At one point, I feel like I'd completely lost the battle. I stumble upon the many pathways in life that I become confused of what is wrong and what is right; what I want and what I do not want.

Ironically, I chuckle upon remembering the poem The Road Not Taken by Robert Frost. I'm amazed at how true it is in reflecting all the happenings in our lives.

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;

Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,

And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I—
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.

We make decisions every time, every day, 24/7. It might be a major or a minor one. Major decisions require us to think deeper. It cannot be made in a blink of an eye. It is a decision which will affect our lives forever, either we want it or not. People think differently, and because of that, we make different decisions based on our own beliefs. Sometimes, we make wrong decisions, the one that will be regretted all your lifetime. Once you've made up your mind, there is no turning back. You can fall, and you can try to get up again, armed with new enthusiasm and hopes. Hoping for a better life, a better future. But things are not going to be the same anymore.

And somehow, somewhere, you happen to be stuck in the middle.There's no room for you to breathe. You need some space! You do not need anyone to bug and tell you the pathway you have to choose, or the decision you have to make. It is all about you. It's your life. Sometimes you have to be cruel to be kind. As much as you want it, you can't have it. It's killing you but there's nothing you can do about it. It becomes the hardest decision that you'll ever have to make.

You can put up a brave smile without other people knowing the difficulties you have to go through. All the things that you've hidden and buried then are secretly eating you from the inside. Slowly, but surely. You wonder how long do you have to play around with your feelings. You know that something is wrong somewhere, but you simply don't know how to fix it. You wonder at how strange it is for haunting you over and over again. Your nights are sleepless. You seem like a walking shadow, moving, yet lifeless. The thoughts can't seem to leave you alone. Yet you need to move on and live your life as there's more to it. All the confusions and misunderstandings can suck you dry. And you simply don't want that. So now you've left everything behind.. but then, why does it still hurt?

Sunday, January 18, 2009

Sheer Bliss

Of all the nicest things in the world, I would choose a longgg hot shower or bath on top of the list. This may sound funny and quirky, but it is the truth. After spending long hours at work or leisurely strolls in town, the only thing I look forward to every time is to indulge in my shower time.

Imagine standing under the shower, hot water pouring through your strands of hair and flowing down your body.. All of a sudden, all those tight muscles I've been having all the while seem to relax a little and I feel more at ease. Whichever problem that has been troubling my mind seem to fade away with the flow of the water.. All the burdens on my shoulder seem to be uplifted as the droplets of water hit my skin, dragging me away from the insanity of the cruel world outside. The soft, subtle smell of shampoo and conditioner bring me to a heaven-like fantasy land. Is this even real? Everything seems so perfect, so flawless. Emptiness fills my mind as I savour the moment. I rejoice even at the thought of the 5-minute spent inside my cubicle of temporary serenity.

Snap! It's time to get back to reality. It's true when they say all good things must come to an end. Well, at least for the time being. Ha-ha.

Saturday, January 17, 2009

Thank you, my love..

I dunno why, yet this has been my current favourite song these days. I could listen to this sentimental number over and over again. The sound of the piano dominates the whole song, another reason why I love it even more as piano has always been my favourite musical instrument. Anyway, the lyric is very deep and meaningful, enhanced by the powerful voice of Afgan, the singer, who is an Indonesian. It's basically about how grateful a man is when the woman he loves gives him another chance to start afresh with the relationship even after the man has broken her heart in some ways. So the song is somehow dedicated to the woman as a form of thank-you. It's really sweet and is now a hit in all radio stations nationwide!

Terima Kasih Cinta - Afgan

Tersadar didalam sepiku
Setelah jauh melangkah
Cahaya kasihmu menuntunku
Kembali dalam dekap tanganmu

Terima kasih cinta untuk segalanya
Kau berikan lagi kesempatan itu
Tak akan terulang lagi
Semuaaa kesalahanku yang pernah menyakitimu

Tanpamu tiada berarti
Tak mampu lagi berdiri
Cahaya kasihmu menuntunku
Kembali dalam dekapan tanganmu

Terima kasih cinta untuk segalanya
Kau berikan lagi kesempatan itu
Tak akan terulang lagi
Semuaaa kesalahanku
Kesalahanku yang pernah menyakitimu

Working on a Saturday

It's official, we need to work today in order to replace for the upcoming CNY holidays. Arrrgghh.. I'm so sleepy and I couldn't think straight even after I had my cup of caffeine boost, or to be exact, a cup of strong, black coffee. I couldn't sleep well last night and this morning I literally had to drag my ass off the bed to the bathroom! School's not that bad so far, especially when I had prepared all the materials for the lessons. After all, next week they're going to sit for their EXCEL exams and I myself will be busy supervising the exams as well as marking papers. Thank God that English papers would only be on Tuesday and Wednesday! (I need to wait for EST paper though) Whatever it is, I hope I could finish marking them all by next week so that I could relax and enjoy the one-week holidays work-and-stress-free! Ha-ha.

But for now I need to head off to my next class. We're doing literature today. Daa~

Thursday, January 15, 2009

Of Wedding and Historical City

Many congratulations to our friends, Fairul and Azlin, on their wedding last December. It was a great ceremony and we really enjoyed ourselves that day. The funny thing is, Fairul is Bie's ex-colleague and Lin is my ex-batch mate! And mind you, we did not on purpose introduce them to each other in any way. Well, let's just say that fate brings these two lovebirds together. Tee-hee. You guys had pulled it off with the light green theme! Anyway, thanx for inviting us and for the goodie bags, too. May you two live happily ever after! God bless!

On a full stomach, we headed to the historical city, Malacca just because we'd like to eat nice and fresh ikan bakar (grilled fish) at Anjung Batu! Before we went there, I had this strange desire to ride on the Eye on Malaysia, which is now relocated to Muara Sungai Melaka (thanks Bie who would indulge my every whim! ha-ha). Anyway, from the Eye's 60-metre height, we could see a breathtaking view of Melaka city on one side and the Straits of Melaka on the other side. I specially adore the moment when we sat silently hand in hand watching a spectacular sunset. How romantic!

As mentioned previously, the main purpose of us going to Malacca is because we felt like eating seafood. The restaurant that we always go is always full of people especially at dinner time. Even for us who reached there quite early too had to wait for almost 1 hour for our meals! Whatever it is, the food was great so the long wait was kinda worth it though. We ordered ikan bakar(grilled fish), sotong celup tepung and kerang bakar that night. However, they really need to improve their service or come up with a new systematic system if they don't want to lose any customer for it was kinda slow that night and some of the workers were not really around when you need them the most. But overall, everything was A-OK. We headed to KL after that, and guess what, I was sleeping all the way. Maybe because I was too full and too tired, leaving Bie driving all on his own. Sorryy.. I couldn't help it! Ha-ha.

Who could ever resist these..??

Sunday, January 11, 2009

Day out

I went out with my girl friends, Sis, Dina and Dyana, to MidValley (where else, haha) not long before I flew back to Sandakan. It had been a while since I last saw them, well, minus my sis of course. Anyway, we had late lunch at Jusco Cafe. The laksa (rice noodles) there was very nice and highly recommended. Once you try it, you'll be asking for more, considering that you're a big laksa fan.

Anyway, we had lotsa fun that day, not to mention splurging out on clothes and novels! I just couldn't believe that Dina and Dyana haven't got the chance to watch Twilight yet back then! Unlike them, due to our obsession with Edward and Bella of Twilight, me and sis had spent about RM100 over on The Twilight Saga series at MPH! There are 4 books altogether but I forgot where I put the first one ha-ha. I'd finished reading the first and second book. Wish to read the other two soon when I have the time. So guyssss, hope we could do this again next time yeah.. until then! *winks*

The Twilight Saga

Not long after that, I hung out with my best pal since high school, Iyda at Sunway Pyramid. We window-shopped for baby stuff since she's expecting her first child very soon. Her tummy seemed so small yet I was told that the baby is very active. Anyhow, he/she had really behaved him/herself when we went out that day. No kicking whatsoever. Good baby. Anyway, we had dinner at Pancake International and I ordered a plate of spaghetti bolognese and brown waffle. Quite nice. Should try the famous pancakes next time around. Later on, Bie and her hubby joined us for a movie - Cicakman 2. The movie was okay lah. Lotsa CGs though. Good try, KRU. By the time we finished the movie, we were feeling damn tired that we headed home straightaway after saying farewells to one another. What a longgg day!

Dun think you can fit into that though! Nah.. of course it's for the baby!

What I had for dinner that day..

Tuesday, January 6, 2009

What an exhausting day

It was raining heavily the moment I left my house for school this morning. I walked all the way to my usual parking space to find it empty. God, I scared myself off. I dunno what's got into me for forgetting the fact that I parked it somewhere nearer to my block. Upon reaching school, I was told that there was an accident near the road to our school involving a school bus. Just imagine! Thank God I took the other road, did not get stuck with anything and reached school on time.

I had entered all the classes that I'll be teaching all year through except one - 5F, for EST. We were told by the principal to start off with EST classes in the afternoon right away, yet, we cancelled it today since it's only the first week! However, we had our first English Panel meeting for this year, witnessing the absence of Lat and Hiew and the presence of a new teacher, Ms. Chung. We basically discussed about the last meeting, ULBS and PLBS, scheme of work, tests and exams, competitions, reference books and many more. Chung was appointed directly as the new secretary, taking away Laurence's place. It was so-called an annual tradition, or so, as they called it. Ha-ha. This year's drama team will be led by me, assisted by 3 other teachers - Chang, Chung and Amalia. We're targetting for nationals this year! I'll surely ask for lotsa funds for the props and costumes from the school. Remind me to get the replacement for our former team members who left school this year.

Starting this week onwards, all teachers need to stay back until 3pm on Tuesdays and Wednesdays, and 3.30pm on Thursdays. Doesn't make much difference to us EST teachers though, since we normally stay back for EST classes. Of course, there are a lot of complaints but I don't think there's anything that we can do anyway. We are after all, "saya yang menurut perintah" (yours faithfully).

Oh yes, today, of all days, we received an unexpected visit after recess time. With one Nazir going around the school to check on the teachers, the staff room seemed like a madhouse! Hope he'll like the new peach colour of Sung Siew buildings this year! Ha-ha.

Another breaking news. Apart from using printed lesson plans to be put into this one huge blue file, we were told that we need to use a record book instead this year! Imagine writing all those lengthy plans! I don't know whose stupid, unreasonable idea is this. Huh. That very thought basically ends my entry for today. I'm off to bed now, certainly not amused. I hope I won't be getting any nightmares tonight. Zzzz..

Sunday, January 4, 2009

Duty Calls

For the year 2009, I was assigned with several roles by the school management. They are as follows:
  • Form teacher of 5C
  • 20 English periods and 3 EST periods: 2 Form 3 and 3 Form 5 classes
  • Under the committee to maintain the school web, multimedia presentation, publicity etc.
  • Secretary of the Management of Students Affairs
  • Teacher advisor for English Literary Club, Badminton Club and St. John Ambulans
And surely, many more are coming their way as time goes by! I heard from Lat that Sandakan will be the organizer for English Drama Competition State Level. I'm sure this year's participants will put up quite a challenge in order to win either at the divisional level, state level or next, national level in which I understand will be held in Penang. I was lucky that I was able to learn a lot from the drama gurus - Lat and Hiew, last year before they got transferred at the end of the year (thanks, guys! enjoy yourself at your new schools!). Hope I could make full use of what I'd learnt to strengthen the school's drama team. With God's will.

Congrats as well to all Form 3 students who sat for their PMR last year for the amazing results! Our school managed to increase the percentage from 90.7% to 93.3% this year, and that was quite an achievement. I heard that majority of my students in 3C managed to get A for English, and I can't tell how proud I am for em all! Keep up the good work in Form 4, though. This year, I hope I could maintain the results for my upcoming 3D and 3F students, too. I'd make sure the same goes to my Form 5 classes as well. Yes.. all exam classes! (this means more work)

Whoa, all the talk about work makes me wondering on how much do I need to work my ass off this year. And it's only a day before the start of the new semester!!

p/s: To those who had tagged me for any survey, thanks so much, will do it when I have the time.. hope that's possible! No offense! :p

Saturday, January 3, 2009

He's the Man

"Hi Auntie Aida, this is Adam."
"Hi Adam, Auntie Aida speaking here."
"Hehehehe. How are you Auntie Aida?"
"I'm very good. How about you, Adam?"
"Fine, thank you."
"You're welcome. What are you doing now?"
"Playing toys on the sofa."
"Very good. You're playing alone? Where's Mummy?"
"Yes.. Mummy in the kitchen."
"What is Mummy doing?"
"Wash clothes."
"Mummy is washing Adam's clothes?"
"Yes. Manyyy clothes. Where is Auntie Aida?"
"I'm very far away. I'm in Sabah. Do you know Sabah?"
"Yes, very far away."
"Yes, yes, very far away. Can you sing ABC for me?"
"A, B, C...... X, Y, Z! Is Adam clever?"
"Very clever! What about 1, 2, 3?"
"I can count too! 1, 2, 3.... 10!"
"Only until 10? What about after 10, Adam?"
"Dunno.. hahahahahaha"
"It's OK, next time we learn together and Auntie Aida treats you to ice-cream, you want?"
"I want! Thanks Auntie Aida."
"You're welcome Adam."
"Auntie Aida" "Yes, Adam."
"Auntie Aidaaaaaaaaaaaaa..!"
(then he kept on screaming my name till Bie took the phone away from him)

That very phone call had really brightened up my day! Surprise, surprise! Introducing my new hero, the one that Bie's always been jealous of, he's.. Adam Johan! He's the only son of Bie's friends, Naz and Lily btw. Very good-looking aye? Of course, with him coming from a mix of Malay and Chinese parentage, you can almost never resist the urge to love this cute and adorable lil' boy! One thing you should know about Adam is that he is by nature inclined towards girls and cars! A playboy and a heartbreaker in the making huh? *lol*

Whatever it is, I'll always love you and I look forward to see more and more of you, Adam! Did I mention that his pic had been made as my current laptop wallpaper? Ha-ha. Shhh.. I secretly told Bie that I want our future baby son to be as cute and adorable as Adam! I mean, who wouldn't? *grin*

Thursday, January 1, 2009

Welcoming 2009

"Ding, dong", there goes the clock when it strikes twelve on December 31st. This marks the beginning of a new year, and more. It isn't only about a change of calendar, or when people wish each other a very Happy New Year. For most of us, it lights up hopes and wishes for a better tomorrow.

Things I've been through/achieved in 2008:
  • Got posted to a new, unexpected place so far away from my loved ones
  • Made new, interesting friends and rekindled old relationships
  • Moved a few times before finally settled in
  • Bought my first car
  • Fought and sulked with someone who used to be close to me
  • Trained my drama team till state level (tired but proud of it!)
  • Started dj-ing back after putting down my headset for 2 years
  • Got myself a bob-cut, something I'd never tried before
  • Developed a fetish for squash
  • Celebrated me and Bie's 6 years of relationship
  • Toured around Sabah when I got the chance to do so
  • Flew back all the way to Wellington for my graduation in May
  • Witnessed majority of my friends getting either engaged or married
  • Travelled to Singapore, Terengganu and Melaka all in the same month
  • Flew to and fro the Peninsular about 10 times a year!
  • Saved up money and bought my first D-SLR
  • Rewarded myself a diamond necklace for my birthday
  • To realise that I rarely see my Grandma and now she'd gone forever (you never miss the water till it's gone)
Things I'm wishing for in 2009:
  • Health and happiness for my family and friends
  • Continuing doing my best at work and always working hard
  • Strengthening my drama team so that we could go national
  • Continuing my excellent relationship with my boy friend
  • Tying the knot (possibly)
  • Getting through the SPP interview and next confirming my placement into the government service
  • Getting a transfer so I could be closer to home and loved ones
  • Meeting new people and maintaining existing relationships, and maybe reconciling with someone
  • Understanding the people around me better especially my students
  • Wishing I could procrastinate less and less this year
  • Saving up money for travel and own house
  • Developing a new hobby, perhaps
2008 had been both an amazing and a challenging year for me, so I hope that 2009 is going to be my best year yet! Wishing everyone happiness and joy.. and God blessings for the New Year!