The Softer and Mushier Side of Me

It has only been about a month of separation yet I miss him like crazy.. yes, I do! I'd been kinda occupied with work these few weeks and rarely got the time to keep in touch with my other half.. Well, that's what you get when you're a million miles apart! Every night I sleep early without even listening to his voice and that makes me terribly sad coz we're just a phone call away :(

But you just can't help it when you're too tired, I must say! Also, his new shift pattern is kinda funny and odd, so yeah, I will need to bear with it though deep inside I don't want to. Huhu. Living a single life can be fun and carefree but it can also lead to feelings of loneliness. There's no one around for you to look after, pamper, talk to, argue with or even bully! Haha. It's true, I can't live without him. Practically, he's been around like.. forever, so not being able to be together even after we're married is too much. Reality bites, yeah I know, but there's nothing much we could do about it now. Not yet.

Sweetheart,

Sometimes when I'm sitting alone in my room, all I could think about is the 'wow' moments we had together.. The time when we walked hand in hand everywhere we go.. the time when we watched movies at the cinema and I snuggled closer to you coz I was feeling cold (or scared).. the time when you snapped my pictures when I wasn't looking.. or even the time when we were lying lazily on the couch watching tv.. That was when my world seems so right.. and that was why I've just got to be near you every minute of everyday..

So, let this weekend come soon while the rest of the hols pass slowly coz I can't wait to see you, husband! ;)

Sis' Visit... Woohoo!

This makcik came over on a business trip for a couple of days last week and she truly cheered up my days amidst my hectic and packed schedule. I only got the chance to show her around the city and bring her to eat seafood (lots and lots of em!). So sorry! And thanks for accompanying me go shopping for my perbarisan stuff and I truly hope you enjoyed your stay in the nature city!

Sweet & sour barramundi (siakap) and butter lobster

Mixed veggie and fried calamari

Happy and contented~

Us~

Sunset at Pantai Pasir Putih

p/s: Pics were taken with camera phone and sis' iPhone!

Phheeww!

The past few days had been busy, stressful and exhausting. I was sick, and there were heaps of paperwork and marking to be done, sis' visit and Sports Day too, but I am doing okay now. Nothing much going on at the moment except looking forward to the one-week CNY holidays as I will be flying home next Saturday (weeee!). It will be great catching up with hubby, family and friends as I do miss them a lot.

I do have a lot of pictures to post here but I'm just too lazy to organize and resize em now. Maybe I will get it done in a day or two. So take care everyone.

T.P.O!

Totally pissed off! That's exactly what I feel right now. God, please help me... Is there any such place as a SNOB-FREE zone? I need to get there, A.S.A.P! I am totally sick and tired of those who think they're better than others!

These people don't listen to you when you needed them to. It's as if you're talking to yourself, as if you're a broken statue, not worth to look at. All they do is talk and talk and talk and talk endlessly.. as if the world is coming to an end and all that's left to do is talking to each other. They never respect you, treating you like shit when they should be the one feeling that. Seriously! It really disgusts me when people degrading me, forcing me to be someone that I'm not, bowing to their wants.. well let me tell ya, it's not going to happen! I can be sweet, I can play nice, only if you do the same. If you want to be treated as adults, now act like one.. coz I'm done with you thinking you're superior than others when YOU ARE NOT. Why can't you, even so late in the day, grow into one of those admirable fellows - reasonable, tolerant, matured and honourable? I must have been dreaming coz that's unlikely to happen EVER. Even my reincarnation cannot guarantee that coz you are never gonna change.

If your snobbishness gets near to rearing its ugly head, please be reminded it'll get you nowhere but trouble. Do what you wanna do (coz you're all grown up and matured enough rightttt?), go talk behind my back, I just don't care anymore. Period.


p/s: I should stop thinking so much.. I'm really tired now.. My health is getting worse..

Sick... Again!

I woke up this morning only to discover that my throat hurt like hell and I coughed endlessly. I also had slight fever, headache, nausea and muscle aches. I don't know what may be the reason for it but it really annoys me. Why? Coz I exercise, eat balanced meals, take my vitamins, drink plenty of water and have enough sleep. The worst part is that I just recovered from one last week.. Do you get sick this often?? What's wrong with me?? I just hope it's not this huhu (mintak simpang!!)

Dammit.. now that I'm sick again, I would have to cancel my date with my buddies and postpone my tuition class. Do not smile, it's not what you think it is.


p/s: Hubby is sick too.. Is it fate or coincidence?

New Layout!

I've been thinking about changing the blog layout for a long time already and only now I manage to do so. Actually I do like (like?? LOVE!!) my previous greenish layout but, y'know, sometimes we just have to let go in order to start anew.. So, yeah. I prefer Gisele Jaquenod's designs but unfortunately her collection is quite limited. So I did some browsing and found a few nice layouts but this one had really caught my eye so I might as well go with this one for the time being. I think it has a very fresh, calming and relaxing look and most importantly, it's simple but nice, and full of things I love: brown colour, books, beach, photography, travelling and coffee! ♥

Someday We'll Know

Every time I see you, it's all coming back to me.. What you did.. what you said.. I will never ever forgive you.. Well, maybe I can forgive, but never forget.

I just don't like the way you treat me. You thought you can bully me, manipulate me, use me. But I prove you wrong. I'm not someone you can bark around and order to do things. I'm not someone you can look down upon just because you claim to be 'more' than I do in every way. If you want to win, I can let you. But winning that way doesn't look or sound right You just can't accept people pointing out your mistake. You want people to bow down to your opinions.. who the hell are you??! Well let me tell you there are people who are much much better than you out there, so just please stop being a snob!

Let me remind you, you don't have to use your sarcasm to degrade me coz I simply don't care. I'm not even that someone you trust or consider as a friend, just because you know you don't have to tell me anything. For you, you can lie to me and still feel nothing about it. If that's the case, why should I stick with you? From the moment you said those words, I know that you are one selfish creature who doesn't care about other people but yourself. It's no surprise that people are avoiding you bit by bit. They now see who is the REAL you. I'm not saying that I'm the best BFF everyone would ever want, but lemme assure you that I treat my REAL friends well, so I guess you don't deserve me at all coz every time I'm with you I feel like shit.

You can plant lies in other people's minds about me, you can place a red tape over their mouths to keep the truth confined, you can even pretend to be the victim.. but I've had enough of you. I can only believe and hope that they will see the truth around someday. Someday, yeah.