Monday, August 31, 2009


Happy 52nd National Day, my beloved country, Malaysia!
No matter what happens, you will always be in my heart...
Wishing you continuous prosperity, peace and happiness for many years to come!

Shout it, people...

taken during our school's Merdeka celebration this year


I'm trying my very best to understand. I do. But sometimes, I just don't get it. Is it really me after all? I feel hurt, disappointed, all at the same time. I long for something. Yet, things often don't go my way. I want to cry, I want to scream out loud, I want to let go of the things buried deeply inside of me. But so far I just can't. The pain seems to be so real, I can't believe my own self. I pray to God for some animalistic strengths to keep me going. Still, I wonder whether it's gonna be good enough. Suddenly, I feel so stressed out. All I can think of right now is to run away from things.. let it cool off on its own, I guess.

Why, why is this happening..?

Sunday, August 30, 2009

One World Hotel

We went breaking fast with Team Kaitenaz at One World Hotel, Damansara last night. It was so packed with people ready to indulge themselves with glorious meals to the max. The food were awesome and there were heaps of variety to choose from - East Meets Western kinda menu at the worthy amount of RM95++ per person. Personally, I love the sushi and dim sum - a must try! The roasted lamb and satay are not bad as well.

Also, I got to meet the devilishly cute Adam!! ♥♥
(who keeps calling me 'Auntie Aida....! Auntie Aida....!!' non stop)

How so?

When she wanted something so bad, he said 'No, I don't think so' or 'Too rushing.'

When she pulled a long face and agreed to give in to him, he said 'Ok, let's go.'

When she refused, he forced her 'Quickly, get out of the car, let's go now.'

When she set her foot down, and said 'I don't want to. Let's go where you want to go.', he said 'Okay' just like that.

He had totally ruined her mood.

He had totally put off her desire to get whatever she wanted.

But he didn't know why she did that in the first place.

For her, if she did go, and they rushed here and there, in the end, he would be late to be at some place he wanted to be, and she would be blamed. And the cold war will begin all over again...

That's why.

Friday, August 28, 2009

On H1N1

I found this on YouTube, and it's hilarious (in a sexy kinda way)!

"Nobody" by Wonder Girls (editted version, of course)
on the mission to reduce the number of H1N1 deaths

So... moral of the story: H1N1 is everywhere, take good care of yourself, wash your hands as frequent as you can, check your body temperature from time to time, avoid crowded places, wear masks, and go to the doctor if you have the symptoms. Quarantine yourselves if needed. My brother told me that the government had gotten the vaccination but prevention is always better than cure, right??

Stay safe! (and watch the video!!)

I'm Glad

I thank god for everything I have, lost, and am gonna achieve in the future.

No words could describe how happy I am right now. All those obstacles I had to go through before this seem like a million miles away. It's true when they say every cloud has a silver lining. All you have to do is be patient, and wait. Wait, wait and wait, until one day miracles happen and you'll be glad that YOU'D WAITED.

I'd waited. And I'm glad.

Let bygones be bygones and live in the now.

p/s: I have been abandoning my blog for a while, too happy holidaying I guess. Ha-ha. Happy Ramadhan btw.

Monday, August 17, 2009

Monday Blues.

I'm welcoming my sorry self back after my access to civilisation had been denied for a couple of days i.e. being internet-less. Apparently, TM is doing some upgradings in certain area in Sandakan and Tawau - due to the fire a few weeks back, I reckon. Well, I dunno whether to say a prayer or jump around like a mad woman to show how grateful I am, but trust me, the latter sounds more inviting *devilish grin*

Nothing much has happened these few days (how sad is that??) apart from me being stuck both at work and home. We had school last Saturday and it was such a drag having to get up very early and go to work on a Saturday. I don't think I can recall the last time we ever had a free Saturday - there's always this and that. Plus, I had tuition that very afternoon, too. Luckily the kids were wonderful and that itself had made my day. Next, I planned to watch movies with Naim that night but we ended up hanging out at a restaurant near the jetty instead! Y'know, gossiping and stuff (can you believe that we actually did that over a lousy dinner??). Believe me, some days you just need some girl-bonding time.. Girls know best! :p

Sunday was an extraordinarily lazy day for me. But a really great day. But the kind of day where you sit in front of the computer playing games all day long, never change out of your nightie, and still feel good about it *lol* I never left my room except to do laundry and lunch, which was oh, approximately just a few steps away from my comfy bed. Everything I did was out of self-indulgence, although I think I indulged in far too much food than I should! Ha-ha. But, yeah, I haven't had a day like that in a long time. And I loved it. I can honestly say it was one of the best days I've ever had *except for the internet, of course, cough, cough*. And I actually managed to do some paper work I had abandoned in a while despite my laziness.. how good is that?? *a pat on my back*

Well, I just learned that I love lazy days! Sometimes they seem to be my most productive!

But, then, reality struck me hard today... can you believe it's Monday already????


P/s: Well, at least, I'm three days away from my much awaited holidays!!! *lol*

No Boundaries.

Kris Allen - No Boundaries

Seconds, hours, so many days
You know what you want but how long can you wait
Every moment last forever if you feel you’ve lost your way

What if your chances are already gone
Started believing that I could be wrong
But you give me one good reason
to fight and never walk away
Coz here I am - still holding on!

c/o: Every step you climb another mountain
Every breathe its harder to believe
You’ll make it through the pain (or through all your aches and pains)
Weather the hurricane
To get to that one thing
When you think the road is going nowhere
Just when you’ve almost gave up on your dreams
Then take it by the hand and show you that you can
There are no boundaries x2

I fought to the end to stand on the edge
What if today is as good it gets
Don’t know where the future’s headed
Nothings gonna bring me down

I’ve jumped every bridge and I’ve run every line
I’ve risked being saved but I always knew why
I always knew why
So here I am still holding on

Repeat c/o

You can go higher, you can go deeper
There are no boundaries
Above and beneath you
Break every rule coz there’s nothing between you
and your dreams

Repeat c/o

My comment:

I really love this song. I first heard it during the final of the latest American Idol and fell in love with it straightaway. The lyric is very, very meaningful, and in fact, when you study the lyric, it is as if we're looking at a beautiful composition of a poem, full of meanings yet to be discovered by those who haven't heard this song before.

It is a truly inspiring ballad, really. It reminds me that we can always learn from our mistakes and start over whenever we fail. Sometimes, it can be hours and years, but as long as we believe in ourselves, nothing is impossible. The sky's the limit, and there is definitely no boundaries to it all, as long as we're willing to try. Also, I'd like to quote Rudyard Kiplings' from his poem 'If' -

If you can dream - and not make dreams your master

Indeed, we can always dream, and must I say, if we dream, dream higher. Dream of all the possibilities. But never ever let it take over your life as without working on it, dreams will remain as dreams. Nothing less, nothing more.

So, when you feel like hope is gone, or whenever you feel like your life is in need of a boost, DO listen to this song. You'll never regret it. (and of course Kris Allen IS cute, do you even have to ask?? lol)

Friday, August 14, 2009

Of August, teaching and Ramadhan.

Wow, it's already August! I can't believe that it has been almost a year. Been kinda busy lately.. well, I've never been 'not busy', I think. Most of the time I will have things to be done. Even if you can see me online, I may not be in front of my laptop after all. I may be doing some documentations at the same time, or you'll never know, marking papers while watching TV, something like that.

The EXCEL for PMR is already over and now I'm left with stacks of scripts to be marked. At least there are only 1 essay, 1 summary and 1 literature response, unlike SPM papers - 2 long essays. I'd finished marking Section B and C for both classes I'm teaching, yet need more time to work on Section A. It's an eyesore at times, y'know, having to look at their scribbles. Anywayyyy, I hope I can finish it before the hols because the EXCEL for SPM is coming soon! That means more work is to be expected in the fasting month. Well, I hope I can manage.

This year I only teach Form 3 and 5. In a way, it's kinda taxing teaching all exam classes. On the other hand, it's kinda good as it pushes me to do my work more efficiently (I've always been a big time procrastinator lol!) Maybe I should just stick to teaching Form 3 after this? But I must admit I adore teaching the Form Fivers - let's face it, they're more matured, so I'd like to consider them as friends. So, yeah, let's see how it goes next year... I'm still waiting for the transfer form to come out in MOE site, though. A few teachers had asked me whether I'm really gonna get a transfer, and sorry to say, I have to say yes. I've always been far from home and though I know I'm gonna miss my current school once I'm gone, it's time to move on (despite my less than 2 years of experience *huhu*). Maybe I should start focusing more on my married life. After all, families stick together till the end, don't they? No worries, teaching is still my main passion :)

I like it when the students show their eagerness to learn and I'm able to give them what they need.

I like it when they score in the tests and exams. After all, no teacher wants their students to fail. If they fail, I'll cry with them silently.

I like it when they put a lot of efforts in the projects I'd assigned them. Sometimes I feel like putting their work in a museum! (ok, now I'm exaggerating ha-ha!)

I like it when they ask questions about the topic we're discussing rather than talking nonsense.

I like it when they call me 'Teacher!' with great enthusiasm.

I like it when some students quickly switch from other languages to English (and sometimes, struggle for words) when they want to speak to me.

I like it when they consult me whenever they have problems...

... and a lot more!

And by calling yourself a teacher, that means you're also the doctor, nurse, photographer, model, manager, motivational speaker, engineer, carpenter, cleaner, trainer, chef, career consultant, mother, father, and the list goes on. It's the profession that makes all other professions possible. (I was touched the other day with a student claiming "I want to be a teacher just like you!!" T_T)

Oh, what a joy it is being a teacher! There is simply no other job in the world to compare with it. It's really hard work, but the rewards are beyond calculation. (we're still underpaid, but at least we have more holidays ha-ha)

And with Ramadhan just around the corner, I really look forward to this year's fasting and Raya! This year I'll be going back to Malacca first, then Perak. Well, that's how it goes when you've been married. I'm sure my parents can manage. After all, this is not the first time I haven't gone back for Raya. And that was when I was studying overseas (good experience, though!). I dunno what to expect but I have a good feeling about it. Ramadhan is a challenging month but also fulfilling. Fasting is one of the ways to show our sympathy to those poor people who are starving somewhere out there. It's also a good time to exercise our patience and tolerance. Health-wise, it's a good way to detoxify and cleanse your body! Ok, now I'm excited! Ha-ha. Anywayyy, I'd already sent in our cloths for tailoring but I still need to find cloths for my parents and brothers, and not to mention, to prepare 'Angpow' for the young ones. And, oh, the list simply goes on and on!

Till then. :)

Tuesday, August 11, 2009


I feel so good tonight!



I'd finished my work in school before I came back. (most of the time I'll bring work home)

I'd taken my bath right after I reached home and it felt so damn good. (I usually do so around Maghrib i.e. 7pm and above)

I'd cooked my dinner after the oh-so-many-weeks-and-months of not cooking at all. (does frying nuggets counted as cooking? I dun think so ha-ha, but tonight I'd prepared Spaghetti Alfredo, yumsss!)

I'd done my 2 bucketfuls of laundry. (am more than happy to see the empty bucket just now)

I did a DYI facial coz I felt like doing so - you know, deep cleansing, exfoliating, masks, night cream.. oh, blissful.. (there's nothing more relaxing and pampering than a wonderful facial or home spa treatment, you must agree! lol! next time around instead of me doing it myself I'll ask hubby to do so.. can hoh, hubby? ;))

I'm actually so hyped up tonight I dunno what to do! Sleep early? Nahhhhhh! :p

It's like.. having burden lifted off my shoulders, for once. Damn, I should be more organized with ma life.

But, to heck with it.. I'd never felt so relieved!

Saturday, August 8, 2009

The Search for True Love

I just finished reading The Time Traveller's Wife by Audrey Niffenegger and oh god, the story is stunningly beautiful I wept in the end. It made me realise that love knows no boundaries and it takes loads and loads of patience to succeed. Also, it taught me to appreciate what I have before time forces me to appreciate what I had. (see, it's not mere fiction, it's value-laden, okay)

I saw the book in MPH last week and fell in love straightaway with the cover and the synopsis. It is so full of mysteries I couldn't wait to distangle at the end of my reading. Who wouldn't by looking at the photo of a girl standing next to a pair of man's shoes and clothing in the middle of a meadow? And the synopsis goes like this:

"This is the extraordinary love story of Clare and Henry who met when Clare was six and Henry was thirty-six, and were married when Clare was twenty-two and Henry thirty. Impossible but true, because Henry suffers from a rare condition where his genetic clock periodically resets and he finds himself pulled suddenly into his past or future. In the face of this force they can neither prevent nor control, Henry and Clare's struggle to lead normal lives is both intensely moving and entirely unforgettable."

In the beginning it's kinda boring and slow and pretty messed up too - with Henry travelling forward and backward to the past and future, and back to the present due to genetic disorder (so it's neither magic nor witchcraft). But once you're used to that, the story is very melodramatic and emotional *dunno why but it reminds me of PS I Love You* Btw, I dunno how Clare can be as patient in coping with his frequent absences and most of the times not knowing where he has been to, or rather, which date and year. I know I can't. But it's still tolerable, knowing I can reach my hubby through the phone and Internet. So this Henry and Clare met when she was small (and he, grown up) and she grew up with him around from time to time. I must say that Clare is very brave for believing such stranger and even helping him with food, money and clothing (since he'll need to time travel without em). But what can you do when he is the person you're gonna marry in 16 year's time? So, yeah, her world basically revolved around him and gosh, they were really in love. I wish I could be like them too. Btw, she met Henry back only after 2 years but that Henry din know her at all because he hadn't started travelling to her childhood years yet. Only then their passion started blooming and nourishing. Each had their own troubles with their own families but was okay with it. They got married eventually. Their love was, however, put to test with the constant absences and failed attempts to conceive a baby.

Henry kept finding ways to cure his disorder with the help of Dr. Kendrick, a geneticist, who din believe him at first until he told Kendrick about his unborn son and that he immaterialised right in front of his very eyes and appeared a few minutes later. After 6 miscarriages (due to the genetic disorder), Clare finally gave birth to a daughter, Alba (who can also time-travel). Henry then suffered a lot from the drugs he took to stabilise himself but the worse was when he time travelled and got frostbite and hypothermia that his feet were amputated and when he was mistakenly shot during one of his visits to Clare's. He knew instantly that he's gonna die and was totally prepared for it without Clare in the present knowing. He died during a party he had purposely organized just so that Clare will have friends and families when he bid goodbye. He even left her a letter telling her not to wait for him but in the end the story unfolds with Henry visiting Clare when he was 43 and she 82. They embraced and that was the end of the story... (yeah, yeah, he's dead so what.. at least they had the gift of time manipulation through time travelling~)

I really admire Clare for waiting for Henry although she herself is not sure about the future. I admire her for being able to cope with his abnormality, though at times she wishes she could go wherever he goes. I admire her for sometimes being glad when he's not around but relieved when he's back. I admire her in every way and I salute Henry for doing the things he does and for loving Clare unconditionally. It makes me ponder: what would my life be without hubby... Technically, I've grown up, or rather transited from my late adolescent years to adulthood with him around, giving me love, support and everything I need. As the years passed, we've developed a certain inexplicable connection between us that has just been finalized with marriage recently, and I've never been happier. I love it when we can just lounge around in silence minding our own business yet still feel loved at the same time. Thus, I just can't bear the slightest thought of parting with him, but it must be done for the time being. It has been 7 years plus and we still giggle at our silly jokes like it used to be then. So I pray to God everyday to keep our love stronger than ever. I just don't want to live my life without him that I really count on the 'till death do us part' oath to come true. Even so, I wish it could happen to me before it does to him.....

osh, this story has really gotten into my head in a creepy, specific way!!

p/s: I just learned that this novel won the Exclusive Books Boeke Prize in 2005 and a British Book Award for Popular Fiction in 2006. And I just can't wait to see the movie version (featuring Eric Bana and Rachel McAdams) which is scheduled for release this month!


~6th August 2009~

Happy birthday, Mama!

... and many more to come.

This is my heartiest birthday wish to you on this auspicious occasion. Love, care, protection, warmness that you have been giving are so invaluable. I cannot find a word to describe these.

May you have a happy, healthy, wealthy and long life!
Love you, mom!

Friday, August 7, 2009


Oopss, it's happening again! And it's today of all days (rugi betul mc hari jumaat ha-ha)!

I woke up very early in the morning only to find my tummy hurt like hell. I swallowed two tablets of Panadol, wishing it would all go away. Too bad I din have my stock of gastric medicine, so Panadol could do at that moment. Unfortunately, it didn't. It got worse. I tried to drink a glass of milk when my stomach simply couldn't take it that I vomitted it out instead. I drank a bottle of water, lied down, texted my colleague that I would be absent today and dozed off straightaway. I woke up about 4 hours later aching all over, I'm not used to sleeping too much during daytime. I wanted to fill my empty stomach, but I was afraid that I might vomit again, so I opted for plain water. Still, no food. Then, I was feeling slightly feverish.. oh no! Next, I cleaned myself and went out, intending to see the doctor. Gosh, driving became unbearable in my current condition - I could hardly concentrate! And adding to that, there was no parking near the clinic so I had to park a lil bit far and walked to the clinic.. ouch! And not to mention, I need to wait for about 1 hour before being attended by the doctor and came out of the room within 5 minutes' time.. double ouch! Next, I went to buy my dinner and headed home straightaway. I took my bath, ate my dinner and gulped down my medicine. Guess I'm feeling much better now, but my body is still warm - and that is why I'm enveloping myself under the comforter right now while watching TV :)

The doctor reminded me not to drink coffee and tea.. not to miss my meals blah blah blah.. and if I keep doing that, I will never recover from gastric. She advised me to drink Milo, Nestum or oat instead and to eat on time.. I know all these but haiihhhhhh, that would be kinda impossible with my current routine, though. I guess staying on my own (without family) has finally taken its toll. I miss home-cooked meals and when everybody would sit and eat at the dining table for brekkie, lunch and dinner! *huhu* And coffee, who could resist it? I need a daily fix to keep me going but apparently I have to say no if I ever want to recover. I have a feeling that this is not gonna be an easy task... *sigh*