Sunday, January 31, 2010

Sick... Again!

I woke up this morning only to discover that my throat hurt like hell and I coughed endlessly. I also had slight fever, headache, nausea and muscle aches. I don't know what may be the reason for it but it really annoys me. Why? Coz I exercise, eat balanced meals, take my vitamins, drink plenty of water and have enough sleep. The worst part is that I just recovered from one last week.. Do you get sick this often?? What's wrong with me?? I just hope it's not this huhu (mintak simpang!!)

Dammit.. now that I'm sick again, I would have to cancel my date with my buddies and postpone my tuition class. Do not smile, it's not what you think it is.


p/s: Hubby is sick too.. Is it fate or coincidence?

Saturday, January 30, 2010

New Layout!

I've been thinking about changing the blog layout for a long time already and only now I manage to do so. Actually I do like (like?? LOVE!!) my previous greenish layout but, y'know, sometimes we just have to let go in order to start anew.. So, yeah. I prefer Gisele Jaquenod's designs but unfortunately her collection is quite limited. So I did some browsing and found a few nice layouts but this one had really caught my eye so I might as well go with this one for the time being. I think it has a very fresh, calming and relaxing look and most importantly, it's simple but nice, and full of things I love: brown colour, books, beach, photography, travelling and coffee!

Someday We'll Know

Every time I see you, it's all coming back to me.. What you did.. what you said.. I will never ever forgive you.. Well, maybe I can forgive, but never forget.

I just don't like the way you treat me. You thought you can bully me, manipulate me, use me. But I prove you wrong. I'm not someone you can bark around and order to do things. I'm not someone you can look down upon just because you claim to be 'more' than I do in every way. If you want to win, I can let you. But winning that way doesn't look or sound right You just can't accept people pointing out your mistake. You want people to bow down to your opinions.. who the hell are you??! Well let me tell you there are people who are much much better than you out there, so just please stop being a snob!

Let me remind you, you don't have to use your sarcasm to degrade me coz I simply don't care. I'm not even that someone you trust or consider as a friend, just because you know you don't have to tell me anything. For you, you can lie to me and still feel nothing about it. If that's the case, why should I stick with you? From the moment you said those words, I know that you are one selfish creature who doesn't care about other people but yourself. It's no surprise that people are avoiding you bit by bit. They now see who is the REAL you. I'm not saying that I'm the best BFF everyone would ever want, but lemme assure you that I treat my REAL friends well, so I guess you don't deserve me at all coz every time I'm with you I feel like shit.

You can plant lies in other people's minds about me, you can place a red tape over their mouths to keep the truth confined, you can even pretend to be the victim.. but I've had enough of you. I can only believe and hope that they will see the truth around someday. Someday, yeah.

Saturday, January 23, 2010

Visiting Damia

Welcome to the world, Baby Nur Dayini Damia!
Auntie Long lovessss you!

Sleeping Damia - she looks exactly like her big bro!

Hiyyyyahhhh!! *Mimpi apa tu?*

Damia and her Auntie Long *winksss*

With Damia's mama *Baby ni asyik tidurrr je kan, Hanim?*

*Besar nanti Damia nak jadi apa? Supergirl ye?? Hehe*

Thursday, January 21, 2010

Temperature Rising

Even Spongebob gets sick..

It's only the third week of the new semester and I'm like, TOTALLY knackered! There is just too many things to be done and too little time. Everyday I sleep as early as 8 or 9 (depends) just because I can't bear the exhaustion any longer. Right now my students are sitting for their 'Penilaian Awal Tahun' so you can imagine the piles of exam papers to be marked, analysed and given out... And Sports Day is just around the corner... >.<

Well, maybe that's the reason why I got high fever today. My legs wobble, my body temperature skyrockets and I shiver all over. Not to mention the terrible headaches and stomach bloatedness too. The unpredictable weather does not help either. But thanks to Panadol Actifast, my fever has gone down - 5 hours of sleep has paid off but I still feel tired! I have no appetite at all and only ate two slices of bread with cheese and drank lots and lots of water for dinner.

Perhaps tomorrow will be a better day?

Wednesday, January 13, 2010

Some People Really Know How to Annoy Others

Do stop the crap with the 'Kakak' and 'Adik' thing especially when you're about the same age! Please! It's getting on my nerves hearing people calling each other 'Kakak!' and 'Adik!' right across the room on daily basis. At first I thought it's kinda cute but now I beg to differ. It's really annoying!! Can't you guys just keep it among yourselves?? You don't have to announce to the whole world how intimate you are with one another! Seriously! I don't think I or other people are that eager to know either.

Duh!

Sunday, January 10, 2010

There Goes My Weekend!

Why does it seem like time passes quickly during weekends and the other way around during weekdays?? It's so unfair! I'm like.. what have I been doing these last couple of days? I mean, seriously! All of a sudden it's Monday already! Huhu..

But hey, I did survive the first week of school/work this year! Yay to me! As usual, it was pretty hectic for the first few days especially with the new timetable, meetings, Nazir's visit, new students orientation blah blah blah.. well you know how it is. This time I'm in charge of 3C (just can't get away from the 'C' class! :p) and so far the kids have been very good so I foresee a better year ahead. I'm still teaching Form 3 and 5 English and Form 5 EST, about the same as last year, only that the students are different. But I take it as a challenge though. Teaching is never easy. And most importantly, teaching is not for everyone. And it is certainly not for the faint hearted. If you're up for the risky business of dealing with up to 250 students in a day, this might be the right profession for you!

Oh, I finally manage to take time to clean, declutter and organize all my stuff, and yeah, I'm so proud of myself! Heee. Now my new room seems more livable and looks much much more comfortable than before, despite its small size (yep, I've moved to a different house this year). But I kinda like it coz I believe the bigger your room, the more rubbish you'll have! Anywayyy, there's no ensuite, no air-cond, no big wardrobe, no dressing table and certainly no queen-sized bed like my previous room but I think I'll manage. No more climbing up three flights of stairs to my old apartment, no more worrying about parking, no more fussy landlady, no more traffic jam at the roundabout in Mile 1, and oh, the list goes on!

And did I mention I'm car-less for at least a week or so? Aaaaarrgghh! Yes, this is about the accident last week. I'd just sent it to the workshop and it'll only be ready by the end of next week! Great.. that's just what I need right now! But I guess it's not that bad.. I just have to be patient a bit and pray that my Baby V would be alright, with brand new hood, bumper and all!

Guess I'll just stick around and stay at home more often till then :p


p/s: I miss you Hubby, when are you gonna come here??

Saturday, January 9, 2010

Say 'Tak Nak'!


With regard to the arson attacks on the three churches in Klang Valley recently:
violence is not the answer to everything.

What happens to respecting and accepting one's differences?
I hope all Malaysians will remain calm and oppose such acts for this will undoubtedly affect the bond between all races and religions in this country. We certainly don't wanna live our lives in fear. Think BEFORE you act.

Tuesday, January 5, 2010

Accident!

Monday was my unlucky day as I was involved in a minor accident near my school. I was trying to adjust my car at the parking lot alongside a curb facing downhill when I banged into my colleague's car due to my own carelessness. I changed to 'Reverse' and din manage to press the accelerator pedal in time and 'Bang!', and the rest is history. My colleague's car only experienced minor dent and scratch while mine was in worst shape, especially the hood and bumper, and some engine parts. Even the right hand side signal is not working very well. And guess what? Once the insurance claim is settled, I've to leave my Baby V at the workshop for one to two weeks! Waaaa!

looks both okay and not okay
left front light
right front light
look inside and then you'll know how terrible the damage is
my colleague's car - one of the sensors went missing

Monday, January 4, 2010

Hypocrisy

Let's learn a new word today. Hypocrisy. Sounds like a big word, but what does it actually mean?

According to The American Heritage Dictionary of the English Language, Fourth Edition (2009):

hy·poc·ri·sy
(hĭ-pŏk'rĭ-sē)
n. pl. hy·poc·ri·sies
  1. The practice of professing beliefs, feelings, or virtues that one does not hold or possess; falseness.

  2. An act or instance of such falseness.


Ever wondering why people would do such a thing? Pretending that they're better than other people? If there's one person I'd hate in this world, it would be a hypocrite. With such character, no one will ever know their real self for they make us believe that their 'beliefs, feelings, or virtues' are correct and publicly approved. Behind us? Oh, you can imagine the mess they would create for they are of the same level as a backstabber without even a slightest difference.

In front of you, you're their BFF, you're their ally. They will say things that are pleasing to the ears and without a doubt, you believe them. And that would be your biggest mistake ever. Believing a hypocrite, bearing in mind that they're always the 'good guys' (I mean, how can you even tell??) will make you doomed to mediocrity. You are nothing but a stage or tool for them to showcase their dramas. These actors/actresses always know when to manipulate your feelings, superiority, power and possession to their advantage. Their physique will blind you from what is inside - everything that he or she is not on the outside.

A pure pretender. Only intends to show the best of themselves. Come on! There's no such thing as PERFECTION coz we're mere human beings. We die. And when that happens, you and I, we're that same rusty smelly dust occupying the land six feet under. So why do you have to be excessively proud of what you have.. parading them around like it's some kind of a winning crown? A proclaimed beauty and the possession of external luxury and wealth don't make you superior. Not at all. It is what we see in you that we can hold on to forever. Your true self. If people hate you for being yourself, be it. To hell with them! You don't need fair-weather friends who only be with you when everything is going well. Find those who stick with you through thick and thin.. the ones who accept your weaknesses, incompleteness and inadequacy. After all, friends come and go.. but true friends stick with you like family!

I guess it's just insecurity or maybe.. jealousy. It must be it. People who pretend to be better than others actually feel insecure and have low self-esteem. These would be the utmost reason why they're protecting themselves with an invisible armour that's saying "Stay Away! I'm Better Than You". They're ashamed of what they are and what they have. Also, they're afraid to let people see their true colours for they may lose their company and are damned to a lifetime of loneliness. Who knows? One thing for sure: they simply don't want to be looked down upon.. and then the drama begins...

People always say, never judge a book by its cover.. but I really wonder how much we understand it or act by it if ever. It seems as if we're living in a superficial world full of lies and deceit that doesn't reflect reality at all. We're all suckers for perfection that we fail to be who we really are, but rather be someone the people would approve. What's wrong with being not rich enough, not pretty enough, not fashionable enough or not educated enough? It doesn't make you less human.

So, go read a few pages or maybe a few lines from the book before we judge it... What say you?

Sunday, January 3, 2010

It's Twenty-Ten!

credit to Hubby

I don't know what I'm supposed to feel when I woke up in the morning and suddenly it's already 2010. How time flies!

A new year simply marks the start of a new beginning and everything else along the line. It also means that the holidays are almost over! Tsk. Anywayyy, this year, I hope I will be rewarded with good health, lotsa love, more money (ehemm) and better work performance. I also wish to see places, start a family, purchase our dream home, buy cool gadgets, and maybe get that transfer I've been wanting so badly too. Is it too much to ask? I certainly hope not.

Last year had been both a good and bad year for me. There were things I'd gained and lost, all tangled in one. There were so much things I'd learned and picked up along the way, and I wonder if they were ever enough. There were also things I'd done, and as much as I'm proud of them, I also wanted to do more but luck and opportunity never roamed in my orbit sometimes. But I have no regrets at all, for I know God always has something in store for me.

So, so long 2009, welcome 2010!


p/s:
Time for bed. It's back to school tomorrow. *huhu*